Scribbles~!

Christmas List? I guess..

2009-12-19T03:55:29Z

Still haven't been feeling the Christmas spirit.. =/ Even the things I think I want for Christmas don't feel like they're what I really want.. But just for the sake of listing it out.. -New/Used DualShock PS2 Controller (with my name on it.. my siblings have destroyed a good 5 or 6 controllers already) -Used Wiimote (Not so much as a need as the PS2 controller.. just for the sake of multiiplayer fun) -Ukulele (Makala I think is what my teacher said was a good brand. Or Lanikai.) -Money (for obvious reasons..) -Saturday Comic-Con Ticket.. though this is kinda impossible now cause it's sold out.. :< -Heroes Season 3 DVD That's really all I can think of right now.. *shrug..* My room also seriously lacks Code Geass stuff.. Been attending Simbang Umaga at my church and lacking in sleep though it doesn't explain my mood drops. Ended the semester with two Bs and the rest As. Managed to bug my teachers into letting me and my friend into group games.. Fun. "Cussing is a crutch for stupid people." - My teacher. <---just proves I'ma stupid person..

Ever So Lacking in Grace...

2009-12-12T17:35:11Z

Ahaha, yesh, I phail miserably at addressing anything with grace and that has become even moreso apparent in the fact that practicing for my debut has so far earned me many more awkward moments within my friend circle. ><

Anyway, Christmas is coming, and I'm actually not as fired up as I was last year or the year previous; I've done no Christmas shopping and I'm finding myself seeing hardly any reason for festivity save for the fact that various family members and friends are coming home for the season.

*sigh*

Anyhow, I'vebeen preoccupied with the ukulele.. A ukulele club started at school and my teacher was generous enough to lend me his until I got a new one. My mom's cousin visiting from the Philippines brought a ukulele for me, but it turns out that its only use is as a toy. The ukulele itself was 600 pesos and the parts my teacher used to replace the fake parts that had initially come with it cost more than the ukulele. o__o'l'

Back to ukulele~

Just finished some apps.. and I'm wiped..

2009-11-29T05:36:42Z

Wondering what the future holds...

Why isn't it written in the textbooks where our tomorrow will be..?

~Dui Shou (Opponent)

ANGST RANT

2009-11-18T05:14:10Z

ANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGST!!!

Mock Trial: Fail

College Apps: Working on it, not done. Fail

Family Problems: Major fail

Keeping myself from breaking down: MAJOR MAJOR MAAAAAAAJOR FAIL.

ANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGSTANGST!!

I don't know whether to be grateful a break is coming up or not... @_@

October Gone..

2009-11-02T16:27:41Z

Well, October's over, and I've gotta say it was one hell of a month.

It's been four days since K14 got back, and it sorta feels like a dream since it went by so quickly compared to all the time and after school hours the leaders put into it. I can't say too much about it here, unfortunately,but I guess to sum it up, all I can say is.. Wow. Hahaha.. Anyway, back to the real world, with schoolwork, Mock Trial practice, and the principal trying to change the schedule yet again. Good news about this: November, the second most stressing month of the year, will be over a lot faster. Bad news: relatively less time to remember to do applications and whatnot. *sigh* Really gotta get on with that...

Anyway, parents keep giving me a lot of lectures regarding my future, most especially about my not wanting to go into any sort of medical field. Honestly, I know being a teacher's kind of a long shot to some degree, but it's annoying how they're saying that nursing and anything medical is a ''safe'' road, despite taking a long time. Dunno about you, but hearing that just screams to me: "I KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO FAIL, SO TURN TO NURSING AND SAVE YOURSELF NOW." Dad says he's just trying to keep me from making the same mistake he did, which was listen to his parents' discouraging to go into nursing, but I told him that in trying to throw me into nursing, it was almost the same situation he was trying to push on me because it isn't what I want to do. Don't get me wrong, nursing was already an option I considered, but hearing my dad constantly say it is just making me want to dig that option into the dirt.

Anyway. Off to school. Live the Fourth! :D

~Danni

One more note: Gonna order a java chip frappucino with the name Kendal Malone! ^_____^

"The guy can wear a cape!"

2009-09-18T04:52:23Z

So, here's what I'm trying *and failing* to deal with..

-Stupid freshman (who just happened to be my sister's friend) that isn't taking my only REAL extracurricular activity seriously (I've already asked my moderator to just off her, talk to her, or something, but he's just too sweet of a guy to do something like that. -__-).
-College crap (which is failing the most for me atm)
-Trying to sort out my emotional crap (this may or may not cease to be an issue once the cause of said issue leaves this weekend)
-Planning my 18th birthday... debut... thing.
-Mock Trial (In general)
-Yearbook Business managing
-Being a K14 leader (which is somehow one of my most heckling problems at the moment.)
-Family
-Lack of money (my most prominent, given I had to pay my mom the money she thinks I got from that bitch who didn't pay me for my FUCKING BOOKS.)

Dear God, just KILL me, I swear..

...oh, and that title is just in reference to the fact that I'm watching the Sailor Moon Promise of the Rose movie.. yeah.

Venting session today at Carl's. XD!! Note to Self: I owe my friend money.
Another note to self: GO TO VBALL TO TAKE YEARBOOK PICS. OMG.

Why does it feel like..

2009-09-15T04:16:20Z

...the only things that ever come at me are the things that are hard to deal with?

Don't know what to say at all..

2009-08-31T06:43:17Z

...guess I'm sorry for that.

"Life's greatest happiness is to be convinced we are loved."

-Victor Hugo

Untitled

2009-08-28T02:56:23Z

Numb out the pain, then feel it..

Then numb it out and forget. It's how you get through life, right?

Pretend you don't care until you really don't feel anything.

Things are a lot easier that way.

FUCK. MY. LIFE.

2009-08-05T02:47:41Z

So some girl that 'bought' my books never gave me the money for them.

Now, this person in question I have never thought negatively of, but this is just shit. She's been getting books from me for the past few years, and each time I've always been fairly generous, ESPECIALLY since if I sold them to any other person, I'd sell them a lot higher. Not this year.

Early on in the summer, the choir had to do some recording for a little over a week. I showed up for the first five days of recording, and each day I gave a book or two to this person, expecting her to give me the money once she got it from her dad. She always, ALWAYS forgot. I didn't mind; it's not like I'm greedy. She kept telling me, "I'll bring it next week, don't worry about it."

I didn't show up for choir for the next week; I was at Jen's and spent a week there. I didn't remember to call or ask her about it, which I know is my fault, but I KNOW she didn't pay me.

The entire summer passed, and I went back to school. Today, I finally remembered to go up to her and ask her for it, and she tells me she gave me the money already.

EXCUSE ME, WHAT THE FUCK?!

I respect this person, I really do. But this person claims she paid me and I keep telling her she didn't. I know she's probably remembering some other year when she paid me, but quite frankly, I can't deal with this since neither of us has proof. She also probably has the choir's support on this given I'm not in choir anymore. Since my mom's expecting the money still, I'm thinking of just handing her some of my own and telling her I DID get paid because I don't want this to turn into a big deal.

At the same time, this is putting a dent into the savings I have in my bedroom. I won't have anything left if I did this.

The first week of my senior year so far has just been SHIT. FUCK YOU, ST. GENS. -__-

Junior Year...

2009-06-06T23:00:12Z

..IS OVER!!

Now for the hell that is senior year. Anyway.. I'm just kinda blah-ish today because I just finished the SAT at Van Nuys Middle School.. Ii wonder if I did better..

"Am I that bad at tempting people?" - Hyoubu Kyousuke.

Report Card Coming.

2009-06-03T22:04:02Z

AUUGGGH!

So yeah, this is not as much of an FML day as yesterday was, but OMG I NEED THAT A IN SPANISH.

AND MY ENGLISH TEACHER KEEPS FORGETTING TO CREDIT THOSE TWO ASSIGNMENTS!!

I NEED THOSE As... WAAAAH.

Sorry for the rant, but I'm psyching myself out for the coming of the report card.

*sighs* Someone save me from my insanity..

Loneliness and failure.

2009-06-01T04:56:57Z

I've only got two As out of eight classes. That's really depressing.

I've been feeling so alone lately. Haha.. Sorry if the next few posts are emo.

Writer's Block: Comments Please

2009-05-28T01:31:53Z

Some of the best LJ moments take place in the comments, not the posts. What is your favorite comment or thread from a post?

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Uhm.. that time when we all felt the need to make more than fifty comments on Thomas' LJ when he uh.. confessed.. LOL.

sigh... again

2009-05-27T03:36:17Z

Dead ish in terms of grades. I really really hate school. At this point it's hard to keep going.

Still looking for that cliff.

Catcher in the Rye is interesting enough though.

The Fence...

2009-05-21T02:26:54Z

Yeah, someone mapquest me that cliff. -___-'l'

So, my new neighbors have a fence built ON TOP of the wall that already separates my house from theirs. My new neighbors are freaking private.. IN ANY CASE.. I plan on paintin on that fence... Yup.. God knowsI'll be bored after my teaching thing this summer, but eeeeh. Aaaaanyways.. Grades going dooown *pop*

And if anyone's up for a trip to Little Tokyo after the June 6th weekend.. I'm up for that. -__-'l' I need a drink or something..

trip

2009-05-09T04:06:43Z

...Ah..haha...

...I fail at life, I fail at life, I fail at life..

Can you mapquest a cliff to jump off of..?

AP Calculus Exam - Finished

2009-05-07T01:16:25Z

...and failed. Hahahahah!

Maaaaaybe I should make it more of an effort to study.. I hope I at least do well on the English AP Exam.. Anyway,, cooling off by watching Brother Bear. Ahaha.. Relaxing in the Disney era of my mind. lolz. Anyway, my calc tutor is looking over my shoulder. XD!!

Gonna post more later. Ehehe..

Writer's Block: Meant to Be?

2009-05-06T04:25:47Z

Do you believe in fate? Why or why not?

Submitted By and2c_hersmile

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Meant to be? Are you kidding me? Believing that would make me feel I have no control over my life. I believe that things happen for a reason, but not that fate is something set in stone.. Does that even make any sense? *Sigh* Fate.. an interesting topic indeed. >_<

Meanwhile, AP CALCULUS TEST.. GONNA FAIL.

I really... need more sleep..

2009-05-05T06:05:37Z

My sleeping pattern is reaaaaally off.. when school is over, can someone slip me a sleeping pill? Ahaha..

slip

2009-05-03T16:36:30Z

I dunno what's up with me titling the entry that way.. ANYWAY..

I should totally be studying for APs and writing up that 8 page report due on Monday... But I have no motivation to do things..

Something I figured out about myself a long time ago: If you rush things with me, I'll feel more inclined to move at my own pace rather than rush with you. o__o It makes remembering to turn in applications and reports on time reeeeeealy hard. lols.

Anywhos.. I need to go to church.. right after that I'ma start that 8 page report on Warhol. (Yeah, I'm wondering how far I'm going to get with this before I give up and start thinking of reasons as to why I don't have that report on Monday.. ._.

Bai bai peoples.

P.S. WE NEEEEEEEED TO GOOOOO TO LITTLE TOKYO MAI FRIEEEENDS.

Writer's Block: End of the World as We Know It

2009-05-01T23:16:58Z

Robert Frost speculated about the world ending in fire or in ice. Which do you think is likely to end us all: meteorite, global warming, nuclear weapons, zombies, or the superflu?

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LOL!! This has gotta be the best question ever. XD!!! I personally would prefer that zombies come after me and provide a decent chase before dying, but seeing as how that's fairly impossible.. I think global warming would kill us. I dunno if humans would get so freaking crazy that we'd nuke each other on enough of a basis to kill everyone.

Tom's Brother Joey: "It won't be meteorite, too small... global warming we can prepare for... nuclear weapons would probably just result in the world becoming useless... the decay would probably lead to the new opening for superflu.. and zombies are impossible, so I'd have to say superflu by cause of the nuclear war." <------ A very entertaining answer. LOL

Anyway.. Got through Kairos. 'm feeling a little happier.

FML

2009-04-16T04:47:12Z

Messed up on a calc test and now I'm stuck with a C for the rest of the year...

*breaking down*

In the Dream World

2009-04-12T07:38:53Z

In the Dream World..

Scenes are skewed in a diagonal direction.
I'm alone on a beach.
There's no sun, but the scene is very bright.
The sky is a pretty blue. A normal color.

But then again, maybe that's not my dream I'm seeing.

Gave up on a crush that I may have considered in my heart way more than a crush. There's a painful sinking feeling now where my heart is supposed to be. It's genuinely hurting.

Happy Easter.

Writer's Block: Confidences

2009-04-11T18:43:01Z

Yeah, still blank. Going to choir in an hour, went through some old crap. Some memories I don't want to remember, but they came back. Ahahaha.. Last night I counted all my entries and I have about 100+ entries. ._. I vent a LOOOOT unless I counted wrong, which I probably did.

Who do you think it is easier to talk about your problems with: your friends, your family, or strangers?

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Depends on the problem. Example: If you have issues with family, you usually discuss it with other parts of the family or a friend. If it's a friend issue, talk about it with other friends.

Strangers I'd talk to if the person initiated the conversation.

For me personally, it's easier for me to talk over most problems with my friends; there's a wide variety of opinion as opposed to family because there's a chance family won't have very different opinions.

My question: Who do you talk to when you're having an issue with love?

Scribbles~!

Christmas List? I guess..

Ever So Lacking in Grace...

Just finished some apps.. and I'm wiped..

ANGST RANT

October Gone..

"The guy can wear a cape!"

Why does it feel like..

Don't know what to say at all..

Untitled

FUCK. MY. LIFE.

Junior Year...

Report Card Coming.

Loneliness and failure.

Writer's Block: Comments Please

*sigh... again*

The Fence...

*trip*

AP Calculus Exam - Finished

Writer's Block: Meant to Be?

I really... need more sleep..

*slip*

Writer's Block: End of the World as We Know It

FML

In the Dream World

Writer's Block: Confidences

sigh... again

trip

slip